The full moon in Pisces is here—meaning the Sun is in Virgo and the Moon in Pisces.
For so many years I worried: would I ever be successful? Would my work reach a level that I felt was ‘good enough’? Was I working hard enough? How would I get my message out to the world and find the means to share Astrology with you?
I suffered from a bad case of Virgo. I had a sneaky little voice that undermined my authority. I remember being invited to speak to a group of Astrologers in Virginia, and I was just so scared. How could I ever meet up to the standards I imagined a ‘professional Astrologer’ would carry? Would I be accepted?
So I worried and practiced and researched and showed up with my model of the elements. When I finished, sure, I got the few thank yous and moments of appreciation, but honestly I left thinking—I am not a very good Astrologer. They are all so much better.
The truth was I was good—even good enough to eventually become known for my work with the Elements: but I never knew it. I felt so insecure of my worth.
This full moon has a dualistic (as they all do) theme. On the one hand, your Virgo knows that while you may be good at what you do—you are not that good. While you may have had some success, there are surely others who are so much better at what they do. However, Pisces saves the day.
Why compare? It robs you of the moment and sets you up for never getting to the feeling of ‘I am good at what I do.‘ It sets you up for competition and takes you as far away from your soul-filled desire to give, but rather you want to take the chance of trying to be the ‘best’ and then realizing you just aren’t.
Pisces saves the day with the spiritual truth: Who cares? You have only you to answer to. I know in my heart of hearts that I cannot help but do the best reading possible. I know in my soul that I cannot live without giving someone the gift of my love. I cannot survive a life without a spirited desire to share my heart.
This full moon, tell Virgo to move over. Yes, you can seek perfection, and yes, you can raise your goals to a far off distance where success is waiting for you, but in the meantime…today is the perfect moment to eat this life alive—to give yourself full permission to adore what you are doing.
Do you think the Pisces in you could care how perfect it isn’t? The Pisces in you has no other intention but to pour out compassion and kindness—that’s it. Honestly, your soul is having a party no matter what your life circumstance. Your soul is willing to be uncomfortable and even pained just to learn how to love what is.
This is the ultimate Virgo/Pisces conversation. I served, I taught Astrology way back then. But I held myself back from any sense of satisfaction. I was too shy to move Virgo out of the way—that part of me used to rule my psyche.
Not anymore. Now I know the right use of acceptance, and delight, in realizing I am doing the best I can and pouring out love any chance I get. That’s all I do. How can I judge, compare or criticize that quality?
During this beautiful full moon, give yourself a few days of satisfaction. Even if it’s not true and your heart is not open…just pretend you are loved and that you are loving and you just want to give. This is the truth of Virgo—the servant—with Pisces—the mystic. A slave to love, to service and to feeling good enough to just be.
May this full moon seep you in the sweetness of angelic love…loving you just for who you are now!!
Can you give yourself such true spiritual love? At 61, I think I am getting better and better at just letting me be me, and acknowledging how much my heart longs to give.