The Sun and Moon are both in Scorpio this weekend—an opportunity to go deep.
It is so timely that as a company, the Debra Silverman Astrology team has decided to delve into the topic of racism. We hired consultants to assign us readings, educational videos, and TED talks on the topic.
I found myself going deep into “The #1619 Project” on YouTube, covering a compilation of material about racism through the eyes of history, poetry and stories.
I am humbled. I am truly humbled.
I know so little about Black history. I know so little about how the unconscious agreements we live with. The more I study, the more aghast I am. To think that I unconsciously hold ideas that live in the basement of my mind that require study and curiosity to be healed. What if I didn’t take this dive?
One of the poets I listened to referred to this line that I can’t stop thinking about: “Black people have not been considered human beings.” What did I just hear?
That sentence made me weak, made me cry…because it’s true. There are way too many examples: large ships from Africa, countless slaves, endless shame, a million projections of what a Black man or woman cannot do based on that sick sentence.
It hurts so much. Which is why a double Scorpio sky asks me to touch this pain. No sign has a greater pain threshold than Scorpio.
I do not want to live in pain; I have, though. All my life, these topics of segregation, prejudice, and slavery have carried the deepest wounding in my soul, so in the past, I’ve stayed away from them—as if I have always known the human condition was scarred and pained.
As a healer, I was scared that we could not fully heal from our history of abuse, and just scratch the surface with therapies and practices of forgiveness; however, luckily I am an astrologer—one who consistently looks up. I have always known that just a small thought can change everything.
“I am light. I am not the color of my eyes. I am not the mistakes that my family has made.” I am including these words from a song of India Arie’s that I play on repeat. This double Scorpio sky demands that we take these words in. It is possible to change humanity. I have to believe it is when we realize—truly realize—that India is right: we are light.
My best friend has Saturn in Scorpio. For years, she’s had dreams where she is running or fighting throughout the night. Recently, as the pace of our anxious world was running highest (right before the election), she woke up bruised. She had hit her hand so hard on the side of the bed, she hurt herself. A reoccurring dream of a far-distant place lives in her unconscious where she must protect her people, so she flings her arms around.
This is so Scorpio. You would never imagine she would suffer at night like this. Scorpios hide their dark side—even from themselves.
We all resist calling ourselves racists. Hard to acknowledge that we carry old wounds from past lives, the collective unconscious, and the programming that sticks to us like phlegm during a cold. Phlegm is generated in the body’s defense to protect you—even while making you sick.
Scorpios, at worst, are part of this sabotage mechanism. They lie to themselves without knowing it. At best, they are the death doulas or addiction counselors who make it so safe to go deep and not feel scared with them by your side.
This newsletter is about heavy things: racism, my friend’s scary nightmares, and all things Scorpionic.
I have learned to outpace my fears—catch them before they sneak up on me. I do therapy and stay close to my negativity.
Recently, in honor of Scorpio, I captured a scary thought—I am secretly a pessimist. It evolved from having heard way too many stories of broken childhoods and the abuse that happens that you don’t want to know about.
Plus I now know racism has been breaking my heart. I am changing both of these truths through my studies. I am taking an active role to shift my fear.
Just like my friend, who is working with hypnosis and changing her inner story, I have been massaging my fear.
What are the shadows you are trying to bring light to?
What negative program are you shifting?
Have you captured your negativity and brought it to the light?
Are you aware of your racism?
We have to do the work. This is how we will change this planet. Pluto demands it. Change or die.
It’s real. I am on it. How about you?
Blessings under this very dark sky,