Taurus new moon… the Sun and Moon are hanging out in the their old slippers, their comfortable t-shirts and those jeans that are stretched out to the nth degree.
I am in love with Taurus (do I say that every month?). Is it because my South Node — which is the only indicator in Astrology that talks about past lives — is in Taurus? I feel so at home going slow. You can’t tell by looking, but it’s true.
When our world demands we move quickly (which happens ALL the time), we miss the savoring of that sweet chocolate, or the feeling of sitting next to your kid as s/he reads, feeling your love for them, or the time you are in between just standing around enjoying the moment, forgetting to notice the clouds passing by, the comfort of your clothes… this is when there is reason to slow down and feel: Taurus’s specialty.
When I was young, I was embarrassed by my learning disability. I have Mercury in Taurus (Mercury rules how you think), and it had me seeing the world ever so differently. While I could get by and it wasn’t that bad, I always knew my school skill set had some missing ingredients. Numbers would flip, concepts (while they were so interesting on the way in) wouldn’t stick when the test arrived. No matter how hard I studied, I had great challenges in science. My Mercury in Taurus had me feeling insecure for years.
This is the theme of this new moon: where do you feel insecure? What body part, what story, what memory holds you hostage to not being ‘good enough’? Where is your internal dialogue holding you back?
At worst, Taurus gives up and holds tight to a negative self talk. At best, they slow down and seize the moment with full conviction. They are stubborn and steady, never giving up on their hopes and dreams.
Which one are you?
For me, as the years went by, I found out that what I lacked in left brain skills I had in spades in my right brain. My intuition and appetite for wisdom was never ending. As some of you know, I am an idiot-savant for Astrology. I can remember charts and your stories that come with them long after you leave Level 3 or we finish a session. My Taurus has a memory for what matters most — just not for biology or geometry.
I have changed my inner dialogue and that narrative now. Where I once felt insecure for having what went undiagnosed as a learning disability, now I know that it’s just a small handicap in exchange for other gifts I wouldn’t trade in for the life of me.
What are you carrying that holds you back? Is it that you believe you cannot do relationship, that you cannot lose weight, that you cannot find peace? All of it is changeable when you re-frame the story. That’s what studying Astrology does: it helps you find your strength — while also helping you understanding your weakness without judgement.
During each new moon we have a prayer. The sky is dark and it’s time to go inside. Here is the prayer for this month:
Let me know safety and security from the inside out. Allow me to feel wanted and enough. I am wanted. I am enough. I bring my love to the world and it is then reflected back to me in ways I would never have expected.
Sending you new moon delight from your favorite, learning-disabled Astrologer (who would have known?),